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What makes the desert beautiful is that somewhere it hides a well.
You’ve changed something in me
Can’t describe what it is
But there’s a before and after you
in my thoughts and brain
Are you aware of this?
Or do you think that perhaps
my external non caring vibe
means I don’t even think about you?
I take that risk too many times
By hiding what I feel
Normalizing contact the most I can
Not texting right away
Taking just a little longer to answer
Saying it’s ok
Not giving importance to things
I already know by heart
Disguising my full memory of you
because I remember everything
No effort
No notes
Nothing
Even so I try to distract you
from my irresistible attraction.
With controlled silences
so, so hard silences.
I wonder if in one of those
I get used to it
And slowly start missing you less
Until one day you’re gone.
Simply evaporated
