#77 When?

Lídia de Oliveira
2 min readMar 14, 2022
Saying goodbye — Lora Zombie

“If you expect nothing from somebody you are never disappointed.”
Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

When should we decide to leave someone?

Not leave leave physically

But abandon the idea of

the expectations of more

the awaken dreams, the hidden sighs

those scenarios we imagine in our heads

where talks about the world lead to a kiss

the kisses on those spontaneous nights

when everything seems to happen so fluently

those kisses that lead to hooked eyes and a hug

and that late night hug that leads to turbulent desire.

When should we abandon these views?

Where is the limit for heart and mind health?

When to persist and when to give up?

Because those movies we make feel so good

when we create them

and feel them in your imaginary body

they feed the little fairy sparkles inside

make our inner gnomes smile

and all the magical beings get off their holes

and behind the rocks where the outside world

obliges them to hide from the dark bullets of reality.

Should we choose voluntarily not to water these plants?

When the other person is hot and cold

close and distant, loving and not caring

saying wonderful things and saying nothing at all

does our sanity lie in this choice

of forcibly closing the door to the hopes

even in self made conjectured hopes

and move on?

I feel I’m reaching the barbed wire with you

This question has come up too often

Making me go up and down in seconds

and realizing I don’t want this in my days

It’s just too soul tiring and destabilizing

I feel all shaken up, and it was I that inflated this wind!

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Lídia de Oliveira

Poet, family doctor and fitness instructor. Seeker of meaning, passion and creativity. Do you dare bringing poetry back with me?