“If you expect nothing from somebody you are never disappointed.”
― Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar
When should we decide to leave someone?
Not leave leave physically
But abandon the idea of
the expectations of more
the awaken dreams, the hidden sighs
those scenarios we imagine in our heads
where talks about the world lead to a kiss
the kisses on those spontaneous nights
when everything seems to happen so fluently
those kisses that lead to hooked eyes and a hug
and that late night hug that leads to turbulent desire.
When should we abandon these views?
Where is the limit for heart and mind health?
When to persist and when to give up?
Because those movies we make feel so good
when we create them
and feel them in your imaginary body
they feed the little fairy sparkles inside
make our inner gnomes smile
and all the magical beings get off their holes
and behind the rocks where the outside world
obliges them to hide from the dark bullets of reality.
Should we choose voluntarily not to water these plants?
When the other person is hot and cold
close and distant, loving and not caring
saying wonderful things and saying nothing at all
does our sanity lie in this choice
of forcibly closing the door to the hopes
even in self made conjectured hopes
and move on?
I feel I’m reaching the barbed wire with you
This question has come up too often
Making me go up and down in seconds
and realizing I don’t want this in my days
It’s just too soul tiring and destabilizing
I feel all shaken up, and it was I that inflated this wind!