#55 Confusion

Resting by Niels Frederick Schiottz

Melting pot of entangled thoughts

that’s where I am today

caught between a Sunday vibe

and all the responsibilities in my life

upcoming, current and imagined

all the things I should be an adult about

but I’m afraid to be.

Is it ok if I just want to

watch a Disney movie

alternating with some porn

don’t think

eat popcorn

being warm in my living room’s sofa

with that fuzzy sunlight coming in

Is it ok?

just doing that today?

Procrastinate and postpone

my decisions to come?

Just want to see the grass grow

See a cat taking a bath

Watch the sea coming and going

see the tree branches shaking with the wind

I don’t even want to talk to anyone

just lie down on this temporary cloud

Where I don’t have to finally decide

to forget about you and us